"Satisfaction will come to those who please themselves."
I got that gem from a children's book, title escapes me though.
Some time back I expressed an EXTREME sense of boredom. This routine has done me in and made me tired in my youth in ways that are unacceptable. The same people, places, and things are just NOT ENOUGH anymore. I had dreams of packing it all up and doing what they do in movies--spin a globe and buy a 1-way ticket to wherever my finger stops the twirl. Truth is, I have responsibilities. I have a mother whose health and abilities are not what any of us envisioned, and the prospect of being left alone to totally fend for self freaks her out. Understood. I have a mission here, a path I started walking that I must see to the final yellow brick. Another color will pick up from there and I will be free to make other moves, without guilt or unavoidable responsibilities. In the meantime, I have GOT TO find something to do with all of this energy that feels wasted. These things may or may not be major, but they will help me pass the time and grow other things to put on the list. Experience breeds broader desires which lead to bigger goals and greater hustle. The NuNu (Bucket-like List) is as follows:
take a jewelry making class
design & make my own dress (you out there Sophiela & Sophiela's Mama?)
learn to DJ & do at least 1 set at a party
go to a nude beach
write a collection of erotic short stories
have at least 1 of these books i've written published (then write some more & publish them)
take motorcycle lessons & buy a custom designed Chopper
coach girls track
teach middle (happening sooner rather than later) &/or high school--consider becoming a professor
go on the 10-day silence retreat
return to Colorado at least once (must meet K.B.'s children)
go zip lining (check), white water rafting (check), kayaking (check), hang gliding
become a skilled equestrian (look it up!)
learn to swim
eat my way across Asia (Anthony Bourdain produced dreams)
make an offering to Osun off a Cuban shoreline
knit or crochet SOMETHING
get off the sabar short bus
dance "professionally" again (for the uninformed--there are no poles involved here)
play in the kickball league
paint something and frame it in my home
adopt something or someone
What do you want to do that you aren't? What's stopping you? Start filling your own bucket, draw from the depths of your own well.
Watch me move.