Piece of Peace
...I'm proud of this picture because I TOOK IT today.
Today I lost a day before it even got started. Then it was recovered while watching the Today show & eating a leisurely breakfast. The truth is, my leisure time is slipping quickly through a sieve & it's making me so uncomfortable that I can't keep track of my time. I'm dragging my feet through the present so tough I've got asphalt burns on my heels (not sexy). At the same time, I got my track shoes on and sprinting my way into the future, trying to place well.
I've spent the last 2 days voluntarily swallowed by nature. I laid in a clearing of Holly and Magnolia trees. I ran through a sprinkler like I did when I was a child. I strolled in search of ponds and grassy knolls. I climbed trees and drank water as my body released it from my pores. I have looked up at the sun and been smiled down upon by it. My piece of peace.
& I need[ed] it...cuz who in the hell knows what to expect from another year under the Wicked Witch of the East out here making wild decisions with no concern for the reality of what we do or the reality of our lives. I REFUSE to start my school year off all stressed & depressed, full of anxiety. I welcome this new experience, look forward to the new lessons I will teach & learn. I am deliberately NOT watching the news or reading the paper to avoid the stew pot full of bad news of layoffs in education. The way my life moves, I'm very clear that no matter what, I will be taken care of & land exactly where I'm supposed to. The breeze I'm feeling, literally as I type this, is whispering that I will be good. My next steps have been laid out and because of the precision in those steps, the steps that follow will also be right.
So, I may as well speak it in to existence.
In the coming year I will begin a graduate studies program in something I WANT to do, not just something I've been told I should. I will grow up the appearance of this blog & make it more interactive so that this can really be a conversation be you & me. I will begin the next phase of building this machine so that I may get ever closer to the larger mission. That's between me & me. I will continue to make purposeful decisions about the experiences I choose to have so as to exit off this “I've been living here how many years?” path to boredom I'm walking. & now that I'm Credit Score Fresh, I will begin figuring out what kind of property should be in my name.
I can't wait to see the foundation built by the best laid plans.
Watch me move.
Post Script-I've discovered that the Summa Holla does NOT go down in nature preserves. These fools cain't appreciate no naycha so I've been safe. Wonder what the fall will bring...