[I be reading…]
I brought my iPod for New Crush (he needs a name) to review after the sideways challenge implied by his assumption that it was full of Eric Benet & some other artist that lands on my “Aww naw, hell naw” list. He listened & was impressed with some of the obscure finds in the mix & given a case of the nostalgic grins as well. We talked at length, for us, about our commonalities & I was given some information about him as well. It’s stored in my mental Rolodex, prepared to be flipped to in the event that anything such as a 1st date is allowable in our future. For now…it’s all a game of intrigue. Flirt game proper, I’m bein’ cool about mine on the outside while bubbling over with giddiness every time I see him.
His sense of humor & quick, dry-witted jokes make me smile with ALL my teeth. He tells the kind of jokes that requires you to have read something & to know the language beyond conversational English. He’s citified bourgeois, a sheltered upbringing with an adventurous spirit. I’m trying to keep my “hands” off of him because it’s the right thing to do. He hasn’t spoken of or hinted toward any “situations” *gag* but circumstantially speaking—now’s just not the time, if ever.
It amazes me how often men who pique my interest are found in spaces & places that make it next to impossible to pursue. It really makes me question some of the social rules we have in place governing whom we have access to & whom we do not. For now, I’ll play by the rules.
My cousin recently asked if she could pass an ex-possibility on to her sister because she sees the similarities in them & thinks it could end both of their single streaks. I told her go on ahead. That was 10 years ago &, while it was definitely a high point in my life, I have no rights to hold onto that which was never mine. If he finds a love connection with my other cousin, then so be it. I will gladly go pay for something off the gift registry in their honor. Everyone doesn’t feel that way. I get it. In the meantime, I’m hands off of everything & everyone until I have a little more information & see some of these yellow lights turn green.
Watch me move.